Ups and Downs

Well it's been one of those weeks, full of ups and downs. I don't even know how to explain the emotions that have been going through my body this week. Many of you know that last year I was in the hospital and had major surgery and I had to go through major recovery afterwards. I think back to that time and remember how emotional everything seemed, having a newborn that was only 4 months old and unable to take care of her, unable to get out of bed because of the physical pain I was in. As I went through this I kept telling myself that eventually all this would pass, and my life could move on. My Doctor said that I would recover fully and I would go on with normal life. Well, this last week I started having more pain and so I thought I better call my Dr. to see what was going on. I was able to get into the Dr. on Thursday and they did an ultrasound and they were able to see a problem-they just don't know what it is. So, needless to say I broke down in tears in the Doctors office, scared of what might possibly lye ahead. I have to go into surgery on the 1st of October-we are hoping that it will just be a laproscopy surgery, so the Dr. said she will try to just do a small incision and fix everything, and if it's a small problem they will fix it, if it's something bigger than they will open up my old scar and go in and do something similar to my last surgery. This news has kind of made my spirits feel a little down. I am trying to think and hope for the best. I feel like all I can do is kneel down in prayer and thank my Heavenly Father for what I have been given this far in my life and ask for his comfort, and know that whatever lyies ahead is because of his great plan that he has for me. I don't know what I would do without wonderful friends and family, who have been there to comfort me-I am terrified, and I don't know what I would do without the loving support of my friends and family. We have been looking forward to this weekend to go visit my brother and sister in law in Provo, I thought it would be nice to just get away and get things off my mind. Well, it's all you can eat Shrimp at Red Lobster, so we went.......and I will never be able to do it again. I was up all night PUKING my guts out. No one else got sick, what in the world. I was just hoping that it was food poisoning and not my body getting more sick. (How often in your life do you cross your fingers for food poisoning?) LOL. My sister in law Bergen got a little sick too, so why the boys were at the BYU/WY game Saturday, my mother in law sat around with 2 sicklies. Oh well, atleast I know to order the crab next time :O)